Taking time in this short period of sanity that I have to evaluate my current situation, I am royally fucked and will need a miracle to save my sorry ass.

But now that I am left with about 5 days, I have no time for sympathy votes for and from myself. These 5 days need to be used to unscrew, unfuck, and get myself out of this shit I've been stuck in for way too long.

I am not going to work miracles.
I will not work against the billions of other teenagers taking the same examination as I am.
I need to work against myself and the fucktard in me.

It's not going to happen overnight, it may not happen afterall because of how habitual this is. I may not get very far, but I will get as far as I can take myself and I think that's all that matters now. Trying to try has been empty talk for way too long and it's high time I started to walk the talk.

I haven't tried my best. But once this is over I hope these 5 days will save me from the regret I have to live with.

I feel the amount of sanity I currently possess already diminishing and slipping away from me. But when I wake up tomorrow, I hope I preserve enough sanity and sensibility to do. Not talking shit, giving excuses for my lack of productivity, or passing the time by dwelling in regret, but doing.

On a last note, fuck headaches.